Day 2: Three Biggest Fears

Day 2:  Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and describe how they became fears.

Fear 1:  I have a fear of disappointing people I care about.

I know, I know.  I should be all "why should I care what they think?"  But, no matter how much I want to be like that, I'm not that person.  I do care what people think.  I care if they approve.  And, I care if they're proud of me.  I will admit I am my worst critic, but I also seriously care about what other people think of me as well.  I know not everyone will agree with all of my choices, but I seriously try to make them proud of me in the end regardless of if they approved of my initial decision or not.  

Fear 2:  I have a serious fear of clowns.

HATE.  CANNOT STAND.  REGARDLESS OF THE CIRCUMSTANCES.  I realize that at 21 years old I should probably be over this fear.  But, I'm not.  And, I'm okay with it.  I've never been to the circus.  I have no desire to go to the circus.  I didn't ever like the Ronald McDonald man that used to sit outside our McDonald's.  There were clowns that used to come to the Southern Christmas Show.  I made sure to walk very fast and not make eye contact with them.  I don't know where this came from.  For as long as I can remember I haven't liked them.  I think they're creepy.  Those painted on smiles are not smiles.  I don't like the fact that they try to act like they're the best thing I'm gonna do all day.  False.

Fear 3:  I have a fear of public restrooms.

I have no idea where this came from either.  I just don't use them.  I never went in high school because if you go in there you'd come out smelling like smoke.  And, although I knew my parents would believe me if they asked why I smelled like that, I just hated the smell altogether.  I chose suite style living in college, because that was the style with the least people sharing one bathroom.  If I had been an RA on a hall-style dorm, I probably would have had multiple anxiety attacks.  I don't know if it's a germs thing as much as an awkward thing.  I've just never been comfortable being in the bathroom at the same time as another person.  I'm real weird.  I know it.  No need to dwell on the subject.

So there you have my three fears.

Hanna